Back Again
technical difficulties and lost all my marbles again
Well had a mental breakdown last week and man My sels can become extremely self desructive.
Make me think of them guys in Old Testament times when they got beside them selfs they would rend their clothes and throw ashes up in the air and don sack cloth.
Seems interesting this impulse almost like we are a Spirit trapped inside a skin bag.
Possibly where it says God make cloaks of skin did not mean He killed an animal to do it.
It is not conclusive the skin he mad came from an animal it depends on how you read the Hebrew.
Quite possible the first spiritual beings did not need to be contained in a skin bag but had some sort of aura like spirit covering that was alive to God.
When they chose to go the other way they gave up something and felt exposed.
Even became fearful and tried to hide.
COuld be why some times it feels like so bad we just want to escape this fleshly bag we are trapped it.
Any way at least am able to not really hurt myself or others any more when these fits of anger and rage get too strong to hold up against.
But with each instance we get stronger .
And Father is not giving me a time to clock out just yet.
He says ok Son back to work.
He is So good!